From the moment I wake up, the stress eats away at me. A toddler screaming downstairs, a kitten doing everything he shouldn't. The kitten biting the toddler because he won't leave the kitten alone for one minute, then complains when the kitten scratches or bites him.
He doesn't seem to learn. The kid just turned three and listens to nothing we say. Never takes no for an answer. Needs constant attention. Always does the opposite of what we ask. He can't play alone for more than 5 minutes and we can't get anything done without him crawling all over us or trying to get our attention in any way. Even while I'm typing this he sat on me 3 or 4 times already. We've sought parenting advice and even counseling, nothing seems to work. His father probably gives him everything he wants whilst we try to teach him boundaries. Each time he comes back from dad, we seem to be at square one. His father tells us the kid is always nice and obeys him when he's there. It's been numerously clear that every other word that comes out of his mouth is a lie. I'm pretty sure this narcissistic person believes his own lies. Not only that, but also the fact that he tries to buy the kid's affection. Presents each and every time he's over there. I know this is a tactic that stops working over time as the kid grows up, but it's hell on earth for us at the moment. And if this would be the only issue then fine...
My partner is depressed and I'm walking on eggshells, trying to make ends meet whilst looking for a job. Financial struggles are also a big one. Every thing I make recently goes to food, bills and things not specifically for myself. I feel guilty whenever I try to relax because there's so much that needs to be done.
I'm in the process of quitting my current job training because the customers I had to work with were 90% rude or non-empathic. The software and/or hardware I had to work with rarely functioned the way it should. This all resulted in extra stress because I couldn't get anything done on time because of constant factors that weren't within my control. It looked like I wasn't fit to do the job, while in reality my equipment was trash. Now I'm looking for something new with preferably no customer contact because almost every encounter I make with other people aside from my son and partner leads to distrust and paranoia on my end.
Honesty has become a rarity. Society seems to crumble more each and every day because of selfish arrogance and blind ignorance. No problem ever went away by ignoring it. If I'm the only person fighting against this stream of bullshit it's like I'm preaching into the choir. Nobody seems to adequatly care about being a respectful and tolerable person anymore.
