Monotony

I want to start off with saying that this is a blog entry I started writing december of last year so the work situation is no longer relevant, but my train of thought is more or less the same... So here it is...

Remember when colors were more vivid than they are these days? Everything seems to blend away in a shade of everyday monotony.

Waking up before my alarm, yet struggling to get out of bed in time. Then take a shower and get dressed. Procrastinating every task to the last possible second  because nothing you do most days fills you with excitement. Getting in my car, driving to work. Waiting for the clock to hit 17.15 am... Driving to wherever I'm needed after work. Or doing the things I didn't have time for whilst being at work. None of them fun things, but things of necessity. Things to keep my living space clean. Tasks even... Every day feels like a task, a chore. And if I want more out of life, I need to take on additional tasks. Which means there's even less time for things that I enjoy. Spending time with the people I love, watching mindless shows, having a beer with some friends, playing a videogame, picking up my guitar to play some riffs...

I'm trying to build towards a better future, but I also seeing how I'm step by step just kind of... trying to buy happiness. And I think I'm herein guilty of an act that lots of people (if not almost everyone) take part in.

I'll just give you an example.
Remember that coffee machine that you've had for the past five or 6 years? It's always been doing what it had to. Brewing your cup o' Joe every morning in your desperate attempt to wake up...
Well, one day it starts leaking. But not that badly. You keep a roll of household tissues nearby to clean off the spillage it produces every single day. It's a minor annoyance but you could do without it.
Then one day you walk past a shop that sells kitchen appliances. Out of curiosity you casually stroll in. You walk up and down the aisles until you pass a coffee machine. You stare at it for a while and start thinking; "Wow... This one looks a lot fancier than the one I have at home, and that one's in dire need of a replacement anyway... It's been leaking for the past year and cutting into my kitchen tissue funds!". So you save up where you can to buy this new machine. All to make your life suck just a little less. Out with the old, in with the new!

We do this with everything. Replace older things with better, newer things.
Why? Because we get bored of them, or there's a better product being made whilst I'm ranting on about this.

I remember waking up as a kid. Not having to think about kitchen tissues. Not thinking about the machine that made my morning cup. Excited to wake up and go play, have fun, meet friends. Everything was new and exciting.